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Just a small update on how it´s going.

Gathered the mental strenght to flash my body at the beach twice this weekend. I haven´t been to the beach in my own country in …atleast 5 years. So. That was rather amazing.

I don´t have a bikini as I havent been able to find a top that fits- not that im that big but i do have  full and heavy breasts. When I looked at other women on the beach, I noticed i was not the only one having to lie on the beach in a bra and/or a small top over it. I think it´s realy sad for us fuller women that we just can´t find a bikini with a bra that can hold large breasts…

In any case it didn´t stop me from going to the beach and I am proud of my self

I even had an ice cream- 99 calorie one. This is realy the key. To look for foods that one can eat and NOT feel like one is missing out on life. Personally I love food- good food- good ingredients. I RARELYYYYYY eat junk food and much prefer a fresh piece of salmon steak with a healthy salad.

My period has arrived so my weight is a bit up and down. So is my craving for sweet stuff. So far I have managed to eat a small piece of chocolate or that low fat ice cream…

Tomorrow I am going back to work after a month of vacation. I am dreading our cafereria because there is so much good stuff. My strategy is to stick to the saladbar, stick to low fat meat and just to THINK when i fill my plate.. It will be a true test, i just have to get past it as difficult as it may be.

Also i gotta stop drinking those hot chocolates from the machine, no more of the cookies and all that stuff we got lying around. The worst is people bring sweetsand candy for all the workers…so i realy gotta keep my focus. LOL. Im laughing a bit cause I think there are so many people who have NO CLUE how difficult it is to diet…surrounded by temptation…

Id rather skip all the candy so I can enjoy a good steak and a glass of red wine

Anyhow- on with it!!!!!!!!!!!