January 1st 2008.

I am writing this in absolute tears.

What a beginning to the new year

 The past 6 months have been absolutely CRAP but I managed to survive a major depression, heart ache, dropping out from the university and feeling like the worst scum on earth………………….

 I checked my weight the other day in a LONG time.. I am at 91. Kg. That is more or less OK – i gained 3 kg. so its not the end of the world considering what I have been through.

My life since early age have revolved around my body- something I can´t just hide. I feel like so many people don´t understand what it feels like to be overweight. One walks around like a walking target, everybody can easily hurt with the smallest comment.

I am an expert at “not noticing” the comments, but I can tell you that inside my heart is exploding and it can just make me feel so utterly sad.

On top of that- I am single and have been single for a year! Not exactly a ego – boost.

BUT- instead of whining about it- somthing has got to be done. I managed to get rid of those 20 kilos- and now my new goal is to loose 5 kilos. Gotta keep it realistic.

So- I am back on my blog. I know I can do this.

M