January 1st 2008.
January 1, 2008
I am writing this in absolute tears.
What a beginning to the new year 
The past 6 months have been absolutely CRAP but I managed to survive a major depression, heart ache, dropping out from the university and feeling like the worst scum on earth………………….
I checked my weight the other day in a LONG time.. I am at 91. Kg. That is more or less OK – i gained 3 kg. so its not the end of the world considering what I have been through.
My life since early age have revolved around my body- something I can´t just hide. I feel like so many people don´t understand what it feels like to be overweight. One walks around like a walking target, everybody can easily hurt with the smallest comment.
I am an expert at “not noticing” the comments, but I can tell you that inside my heart is exploding and it can just make me feel so utterly sad.
On top of that- I am single and have been single for a year! Not exactly a ego – boost.
BUT- instead of whining about it- somthing has got to be done. I managed to get rid of those 20 kilos- and now my new goal is to loose 5 kilos. Gotta keep it realistic.
So- I am back on my blog. I know I can do this.
M
